a single step

The longest journey begins with a single step.

I am trying a lot of new things this summer. One of them is blogging. I have had a love/hate relationship with blogging. While I do want to blog and I feel I have something to add to the blogging world, I also have that fear of putting too much personal information out there. I have always been a very private person. As a child I had only one best friend .( she is still my best friend )  I never hung out with the cool kids, I never followed the crowd. I never skipped school....well not the whole day..... when I skipped lunch or study hall, I would hang out in the art room. I was the hippy-gypsy type, way out wacky artistic type, a dance to the beat of my own drummer type......I still am.  I am  a loner, a recluse, and slightly agoraphobic, I would rather stay home and not bother anyone . 

  But now I want to change.  just a little....

                       Maybe because I reached halfway in my life.

                                                                              But blogging?

                                                                                              Really?

How does one share without sharing too much?  

            How can someone be open and hidden at the same time?

How can a person connect without revealing everything?                                                 

I really don't expect answers here.
                                 Just random thoughts I have.
All my friends have blogs.
                                   And they don't seem to  have this inner battle.
  They all have wonderful blogs and as far as I can tell...
                            they do not become ill just thinking about blogging.  

So why DO I want to have a blog?

I hope to gain confidence and find my style. ( who knew I would need a style? )
I am making new friends, they have blogs, I want to connect with them.  
I am an Artist/Crafter and I want to share my work with my new friends.
And I think, for once, I want to follow the crowd.  

This is my last attempt at starting a blog.    
The first two attempts ended with me running away with my tail tucked between my legs.
I honestly don't know why.

I mean.......well......

you all seem like very nice people.

Thanks for listening so far. Hope to see you again soon.